An Update and Some Loneliness

I have been wracking my brain for the last few days trying to figure out what to say in a new blog post. I know I have been neglectful, and I’m sorry. But the only thing I can up with is how lonely I am, how alone I feel. It is almost as if nothing is happening on a day to day basis. No big breakthroughs, no little things.

I should really rephrase that. There are definitely things happening. The first being that I got a puppy.

This beautiful little Shih Tzu is named Charlie, and she (yes she is a she) is almost 6 months old. Right now she is the love of my life, but unfortunately I don’t think I am hers (that title belongs to my mom). She sees me more as a play thing.

The second thing that happened that is of some importance is that I went speed dating last month. I started the night with a headache and the lowest of expectations, and I ended the night with a headache and a parking ticket. There were some nice guys and there were some duds (well a lot of duds really). In the end I only picked two people, and they both matched. I bet you can guess how those two matches went if I’m writing a post about being lonely.

So what else have I done besides play with a puppy? I went to work, I read on the commute to and from work, I played video games at night before bedtime (my sister has the Xbox hooked up, so I played Fable III recently. I was not happy with the outcome, and I’m this close to starting over and saving everyone’s life). I even started the spring semester at (insert college name here). I pined for guys at work that I have no shot at, and actually tried to flirt with people. I gained some of the weight that I had lost. I drank lots of decaf coffee. I let my nails grow, painted them funky colors, and then accidentally bit some of them off, but thankfully they grow back.

I think I’m done with this post because I just realized this is something else I do alone. And there is no one I know that actually reads this. So in a world of 7 billion people, I am once again... alone.

 

That’s it for this post. Until next time – I’m Charlotte Carmichael and thanks for reading.