Money Makes My Head Spin

I've been thinking a lot about money recently. How I don’t have enough, how I want more, how can I make/earn/get more. I have a spreadsheet with my spending planned out for the rest of the year. I have credit cards I need to pay off. I’m trying to save some money to eventually buy a house. On top of that, I need to start putting money into a retirement plan, which means my salary would be less. My company hasn't given raises in the last 4 years, so I’m stuck at this low pay grade, and for what I actually do at my job, I don’t get paid enough.

I have two options, it seems: 1) start a life of crime or 2) get a part time/new job.

If I start a life of crime, I will probably get caught. But now I have this random urge to snatch a purse, rummage through and take whatever physical cash the person has. I’m not going to do it, I swear. I just really want to!

If I get a part time job, that means less time to do what I want, less time to sleep, less time for socializing, everything. But it would mean just a little more money every month. A new job would mean actually having to look for one, and nailing an interview. So far, out of 20 jobs I applied for, I've gotten 2 interviews. I made one 2^nd round interview, and then I didn't get that job either. I’m not sure what I’m doing wrong, but I know I’m good at what I do. I’m just not very good at interviews it seems.

Gah, I don’t know what to do!

That’s it for this post. Until next time – I’m Charlotte Carmichael, and thanks for reading!