Lost and Confused

My name is Charlotte and I am an education addict (group: "Hi Charlotte").

This is my second term back in school after being out for a while, and I still don't know what I want to do as a career. Does anyone really ever know? The reason I went back was to try and find something I like,  which should have been done the first thine around. I should rephrase that. I went back to find something I like that I can have a good paying job in.

I've thought about what would be fun for me, what I would enjoy if I had to do the same thing every day. I'm an odd duck. I like history and math ( I know, that's probably the weirdest combination ever).

Here's the problem with trying to find a job I would actually like... either they don't exist, or they wouldn't pay anything! For example if would be awesome to be a math historian. But where the hell would I get a job like that?!

Partially, the reason I went back to school is because of my dad. He wanted me to go and get my master's degree right away after I graduated college, and I fully intended to. But trying to find a full time job, and trying to make money so I didn't have to depend on my parents was really more important to me. So I ended up dropping out of grad school after only being in it for a couple months, and I took time off to work. I promised my dad I would go back to school, and I did.

He and I had a conversation recently about my current school situation. Right now, I'm paying for my own classes, which is fine. But I haven't found anything that looks like it will push me in the right direction of what master's degree to get. So I told him I was thinking of not taking any classes next semester. I had determined I proved I was able to get right back into the swing of things when it comes to classes and classwork, and he was ok with it. He told me it was ok and if that was what I wanted to do, then fine.

Dear readers, my father and I do not have the best relationship. But that story is definitely for another post. The last thing I will say is this. I hope to a God I don't believe in, that I do find what I want to do, get a master's degree, and get a job I love doing.

That's it for this post - I'm Charlotte Carmichael and thanks for reading!