It's been a minute since I wrote about my childhood and my unhappiness, and I just realized something. I've never technically been diagnosed with depression. I've spent a lot of time thinking maybe I am, that maybe I should go to a doctor and get an actual diagnosis. But there are times when I feel great, where things are going fine in my life, and I feel like I'm probably overreacting.
So what I want to do is fix things on my own. I like being an independent person, and I don't want to have to ask for help. I know there's nothing wrong with asking for help, that people are there to get you to a good place in your life. And I'm definitely not knocking other people that get the help they need, I just think I don't have the strength to get help. But at the same time, I really do feel I can do it myself. The first step is just lose some weight, and lose the extra fat I have built up. I know I can do it. That's the strength I need to have.
This post is all over the place. But I don't want to delete it because I worked on it, and what I've written will hopefully keep me accountable.
That's it for this post. Until next time - I'm Charlotte Carmichael, and thanks for reading.
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